Home, Home at Last!

My baby is home! He has been for a little over a week now. Things have been going well, better than I expected. The first day was a terrifying one, though. He was so exhausted and wasn't eating well, I had just gotten sick and was wearing a mask for two days so as not to infect him. I was worried I had gotten him sick. Everything turned out ok. He was just exhausted from all the changes and new sensations of being home.

Having a baby is the most draining experience I have ever had. I haven't had a good night sleep since he has been home, and I can't even nap because he never does. He wants to be awake all the time and I testing me constantly. I expected him to be more infantile when he first came home, but he is more grown than I thought. He is a big string boy. He is already standing and pulling himself up with my help. He can hold his head on his own and hold himself up while on his tummy. He's smart, too. He has gotten good control over his hands and can hold his pacifier all by himself. He is very attention demanding and I am trying to teach him that sometimes mommy can't hold him. I hope he learns, otherwise I am going to be very tired.

We have so many doctors appointments, which is very difficult to manage with his monitor and oxygen. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that he is still on a monitor and needed oxygen support from home. So far so good, but it's a pain in the ass. There are so many instructions and phone numbers and things to remember. I'm really beginning to rethink baby number two. We'll see. This is much harder than I expected.

...The beast has awoken from his slumber... until next time...